The Ending of my my 3 years relationship....

It was hell when I wanted to end my 3 years relationship with A...after been together for long ... I know it won't be easy for me to end it... but what I did not know was it would be much harder to deal with her unable to accept it....she wanted commit suicide and stuff for 12 hours.... I had to spend my 12 hours taking care of her so that nothing bad happens to her or it would be my fault for I caused this to her...and I can't possibly see someone which I used to love be in a bad situation right??
she took her pen knife out and tried to slit her wrist alot of time... until there was once that it actually cut her finger and it went bleeding none stop... I have no idea what to do with this girl here...but I finally get to finish it up at 2 in the morning..
I can barely drive by den..
hahaha
I'm dead tired n fussed ...
but at the same time...
I've started to fall in love with another girl called M....
she is a really sweet girl... I would say she is much more understanding and really knows her things...
it was love in first sight when I saw her in person... she was carrying a back on her left hand... a hand phone on d right... calling me I assume to ask where am I... hahaha... wearing a pink shirt and a jeans... wasn't a mind blowing sight but... she was really cute over there...talking to her is so relaxing ... atleast I dont have to worry about saying anything wrong...she skipped class that day just to go out with me... and so did I...hahaha...
we talked alot... all the way...
it was like talking non stop for hours and hours... even days... and we are still not bored of each other...hahaha
infact even more... "together" I would say... hopefully my search for love ends with her as she will b the 1 for me...

Adidas Run : King of the Road

What hell of a day before the run for my 1st time participating a 10KM run...
hahaha
wasn't a really good experience preparing but it was really really fun running for it.
The night before the run I went to mamak with a bunch of friends until bout 1 in the morning, when I reach home I tried to get to sleep but later realize my jogging shoe was left in my hostel house. I got up and drove all the way to my hostel and came back. By the time I reached home it was 3 in the morning. And I had to wake up at 5 in the morning.
I didn't realize I accidentally set my alarm at 6 instead of 5. Thnx to someone only I was able to wake up at 5:40. I rushed everything and left home by 6.
while I was driving there I had my breakfast in the car but I had a wrong turn along the way and made me took a detour to get to shah alam.
by the time I reached there it was already packed with ppl and the event in starting already...
I juz got there and still haven't register yet. I was like where to register all the way while they are already calling for the 10km runners which was my event. they even said it was starting in 5 minutes and I'm still outside the starting point thinking how to get in there.
hahaha
was all to nervous over there. but however I managed to get in there in time and the race starts not long after I entered. since I was all the way behind, I had to wait for all the ppl in front to start running only can I start jogging. it has been a long time since I joint such an event so I got a little pumped up for it...hahaha
telling myself to try to not to sprint in the begining is very tempting. but knowing I still got a long way to go... I controled my self. half way through I really felt like slowing down but I told my self to push harder and I got my self a goal to set which is to keep up with this particular group of ppl. either I'm infront of them or moving along with them and getting left behind by them is unacceptable. and that really pushed me hard.hahaha
was really fun running like this, reminds me of the time in secondary.
anyway... near to the end... there was this sign saying 500m more so I thought it would b close and I started to fastened my pace but for all I noe it is more then 500m more to go.. I stopped how way cuz my moral has gotten low. but as soon as I stopped I saw the ending point and my body felt lighter and this time I really sprinted towards the goal... some other joggers saw me sprinting followed me and it turned into a race. but I still managed to get my medal eventhough I am the 60th to reach. was very proud of myself for achieving after so long of retirement.
:p
but my body aches for the next few days after that..
:p
next time I'm gonna work harder to join this kinds of events

Sick

it has been a week now...
hehehe
I'm sick now...
with fiver, cough, sore throat, flu and block nose... dunno which is worse.. d cough or d fever..hahaha been so sick at both of them..
I dunno what caused me to fall sick... either it is d weather getting hazy or issit becus my body couldnt stand me going jogging at 5 in d morning...
hahaha
feeling so sick and tired now..better go and sleep....

stupid inflations....

These days we have been starting to hear lots of inflation on this and that.. price hike.. pay don't hike... petrol going up.. pay stays... people losing jobs... big companies moving out of the countries... foreign inverters leaving but foreign workers coming in alot.... especially Indonesians, Bangladeshi... and a whole lot more other poorer countries coming in... there are too many foreign workers now in Malaysia where by even the crime rate is increasing... why don't they bloody worry bout the foreign workers first b4 taking a step on to other stuffs...
like at least 60% of a companies worker have to b local...
which means even the brute laborers will mostly consist of local workers...
and we are one of the main exporters of petroleum ,palm oil and other raw material... this shows that we should be in a condition way and far better than Dubai or other developing countries. but why are we stuck here at such low standards... while only kl have monorail and stuffs while penang or other big cities around malaysia don't have any... what about Labuan, our another federal territory?? it ain't developing at all... it was supposed to be developing all together with KL... instead it ain't moving forward as good as our country... the politician fighting among themselves until losing all our resources... thinking bout ways to bring the other party down but why don't they spend time thinking about ways to bring our country up...and another thing is... the way they do things which is actually for our country is so simple minded... they don't think would this benefit the country for they next 10 years?? 20 years?? I dont seem to be seeing them thinking about it... what happened to out economics adviser?? is there none??
then there should be 1... or a new 1 appointed cause I dont see Malaysia improving at all for the past 15 years of my life.... if it doesn't change 1 bit.. more intelligent malaysian is going to migrate soon enough...

Back to my old hair...

long long time ago... way b4 entering my primary school... I used to have long hair...hahha rather long actually... den I turned short cuz of primary school regulations...hahaha all kru cut...den I had a slightly longer 1 during secondary but still... rather short... den after secondary.. i tried to keep em long again... until today... I've cute my hair...hahaha all d way short again... like how i used to but it seems dat my face has gone rounder so not sure it suits me now or not..haaha
abit worried bout it.... but still... I feel much more convenient now with my short hair though ...hahaha.. looks so like some boy which juz came out of Chinese high school...hahaha

I felt so bad....

it has been a full month since I've last saw A... I heard she is rather messed up from her frens which had been calling me to patch back with her and to forgive her on what she had done... but for all I know is... it is not easy to forgive a person after she had cheated on you especially with a tag "playboy" which is on my head had been trying hard to stay loyal to her...hahaha...so I decided to find her and set things straight..that was the original plan.. but when I saw her... I was like omg... she had thinned down... it was the skinniest time I've ever seen her in 3 years...i felt so bad... she was like thinned down by atleast 5 kg and it was obviouse
when she looked at me she was so scared of me or something... she kept pinching her hand and stuff like a drug addict which couldnt get what they wan...after pinching her hand she would pinch her legs and stuff...there were scars all over her... and there is a mark where she tried to commit suicide by cutting her wrist...it made me feel all responsible for all this...i really felt bad for her...she wouldnt eat... wouldnt go to school... wouldnt do anything other then juz sit in a corner and cry even if she went to school...her eyes were swallen... she looks really really awful.. and I guess part of it is my fault...
seeing her really made my heart soften down alot... am I really that important to her?? then why did she cheated on me in the 1st plc?? why wouldnt she listen to me in the 1st plc too if I am such an importance to her...?? it really made me think...
looking at her juz couldnt make me say the things I wanted to say earlier... it was a really really sad sight...

Bon odori....

continuation of my after test..
hahaha
the test turned out to be freaking easy to do... it was so easy that it only needed 15minutes to finish it all... it was a 2 question but 1 hour test. in the end every1 ended up copying around even though the questions are all different but the formula needed is the same.
the class is supposed to be until 2 pm but we skipped after the test and went straight home to prepare for the bon odori.

we started traveling to matsushita stadium at 3 something... luckily we were early as it started to cramped up as we reach dere.. we meaning me... 6 other guys and 3 gals.. I'm the only 1 that noes how to go there by the way...we bought all the food and drinks and junk food early as we expected lots of ppl to be there by the time the event starts...we managed to get the best seats on the stadium for the best views...hahaha.. we even bought a 1.8L of sake with us..Our sake...

den we spend our time eating and chit chatting until the even finally starts...there were lots of hot chicks around.. if viewed from afar but once u get near them to get a good look... owh.. the horror...hahaha
dere were lots of japs around and when the dancing started me and a fren went down to join the crowd... during dancing I noticed a small gal dancing alone... she was so cute... chubby face which I so felt like wanna pinch it...hahaha

So cute rite??

the dance was great.. saw lots of pps trying to dancing and follow the foot steps but it wasnt easy as every1 was moving at a diff pace..haha

juz when the dance started there was a group of 5 ppl with us.. 2 gals n 3 guys went off 1st... I dont really care bout most of them but 1 of dem was my hse mate.. he thinks he is so great and both of those gals already have a bf.. he thinks he can snatch 1 of them away from their bf..hahaha... makes me laugh the shit out of me...and the worst part is... he thinks dat the gal which always quarrel with her bf is d easiest target..hahaha.. but actually they are the closest...or else on what topic can they quarrel on..hahahaThe guy isn't me...I'm the photographer...

anyway.. they went off early to midvalley but none of them noes the way out and ended up getting lost and called me half way when I was enjoying my self dancing......kacau only...
after the dance .. was the 2nd dance I think... we got tired then we decided to head home..
but ended up goin to yam cha 1st..hehehe...since again... none of them have been here... I have to bring the way around and show them around the stores in asia cafe...hahaha... some tour guide I am...
in total... it was rather fun going there... too bad for me I dont have a date for it..hahaha