Regrets

Today I don't know why but I suddenly felt guilt or confuse and some other feelings. lets just leave it at mixed feelings. I dont know if what I've done was good or bad, whether the choices I made was just or unjust, if it is the right choice then why is people hurt? if it is the wrong choice but would more people be happy?wrong or not it is just that people wants them self to be happy. if I please people would I be happy? if I am happy then would they be happy? it is either me being selfish or they being selfish. if I do that to them would they do good to me? I know most wont because that is how humans are. after going around and meeting people so often, how many actually selfless people have you met? how many people willing to make decision that would cause them for the sake of other people been made? by other people I meant strangers or people they aren't close to.

I was thankful that most of my classmates, course mates I've met have been kind and nice to me but I see people from other classes and so on being selfish and arrogant thinking all about them self only and trying to justify them self on the suffering of others. some how ppl like these always flock together, they make the same choices as each other and think things in a similiar manner. and people that are kind tend to flock together too. eventhough from my point of view that my group is kind but what would people view my group of friends as? innocent? childish? ignorant? fake? annoying? I think it could be like how east sees west or west sees east or how they view themself. the west sees the east as a very united nation like china and japan that supports each other to maximise their growth in economy and many other prospects but as a chinese viewing another chinese it is a dog eat dogs world. it is the same as the east view west, they see that it is a good place to live in or a haven for gud child upbringing but until they stay there, they may find that it could be very different.

how do people justify what is wrong? what is good for me may well be very bad for other people. some even may be good for certain group of people but bad for the others. is it alright to discriminate a small group of people to benefit more people? is what you are doing right or is it wrong? does people praising that you've done a good thing means it is justified as good?